sick or sth

today was probably da worst lesson of my life... i had no clue what was going on... oh well, probably just another C... i feel as though i'm wastin my time here in rp... rotting away... and so is everyone else... omg, i hope things start to get interesting ard here.

i dunno y i've changed so much... my life totally sucks right now... yea i know i seem so happy, always laughin... but still everything comes back when i'm alone, when i have nth to do, when i'm thinkin... and that's when i start to think too much... everything sucks right now... my family, my skool, my life.

i feel so afraid... i dunno why i'm doin this... i'm probably sick or sth... i set goals too high, i set my expectations too high, knowing full well i wun be able to reach it... and yet, when i dun, i feel so vulnarable, so useless... i dunno why i'm doin this to myself... i just feel that i've changed so much... i guess circumstances made me that way... but u have no idea how much i yearn to go back to da way i used to be...